He loves me, he loves me not

I was prepared for sleepless nights (thanks to Derrill's mom we have been getting some sleep), I was prepared for being a parent to be difficult. But I was not prepared for how hard it would be. I am so grateful for our little son, he is such a blessing - I still can't believe that he is the miracle that we have from God that came through my body.

I do hope that there is a day in the future that I feel that I have done something right, and that he likes me more than he doesn't.